love and other difficulties

I found love. I found the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. This is a lot. It is not easy, though. We are uniting 93 years of history. One comes from a 30 year marriage which is not over yet. The other comes from a history of different relationships. We are both wounded and we want to find confort in each others arms. We are both troubled. I am difficult but I am nor selfish and I am prepared to give my life , to leave the past behind and to make one life woth him. He wants that too but he is still married and despite al the love the feels for me, he still refers to his ex-wife as "wife" and he still acts as if he was married to someone else. I feel I am holding a ticket to hapiness, but I am on line, waiting for him to be free so he can build a life with me. Will this ever happen? Too early to say, seven or eight months is nothing compared to 30 years.
i feel pressured to be "happy", but he is not. Theres not one day we pass without at least one reference to his past. Not one. Its still pretty much alive in his mind and this is disturbing.
There are million things i like about this man. I like being with him. Just that. Being next to him, sleeping and waking up woth him, doing nothing with him. This is what I like about him. But its really painful to be with someone who is covered in guilt and mouring a family he lost. There is a deal deal of contradiction and I get desperate sometimes becasue it feels I need this mans saninty and understanding of the way i feel .